Meditation and Planning
Meditation to me means focusing, being here and now. I try to mentally rinse my mind of past and future, not being afraid of drifting away in my thoughts, but being enough aware of what’s happening so that I can focus back. I focus back on my breath, on sensations on my body, on sounds, but most of all on my breath.
Then I observe that planning is the factor that most often make my thoughts drift away. I plan the day, I plan my work, I plan my presentations, I sort my ideas, I plan my physical training programme etc. And when I start this way of thought-wandering, I can be in my planning for many minutes before I sort of wake up and focus back.
This is quite a paradox, because I feel that in moments of stress, when my duties hang over me, I need being here and now more than ever. And at the same time my thoughts wonder off more than ever.
Not that I am judgmental towards myself. This is how things are, and I recognize my planning as an old, interrupting, friend. I often, though, wish that my old friend would postpone the visit to another time, and not disturb my meditation. But my mind function this way, I can’t force it, and I have to accept this well known disturbance.
And I guess I am not alone experiencing planning during my meditation. That’s a kind of comfort.